I longed to write, but at the end of the day, I was just too tired after work to write. If I had an off day at the studio, I gave into every distraction in the book instead of writing my own songs! One day I woke up at 20 years old and realized I had helped other people bring their music to life for 5 years! I felt good about that, but the one thing I dreamed of doing, writing songs, I never got around to.
I took a hard look at why, and realized, overtime, when I thought of chasing my own dreams, I saw dragons. A dragon that said, “You aren’t good enough.” A dragon that whispered, “You have a good paying job, don’t throw that away.” Dragons that arose every time I had a chance to pursue my dreams. My Big Dragon? My dad’s voice telling me I was too lazy, and I was never going to get anywhere in life if I spent all my time playing music. I know he meant well and wanted me to have a good secure life, but that dragon breathed fire and fear into my spirit every time I thought about going for a songwriting career. Songwriting was too risky. At least a recording studio had real clients who paid the bills: big companies like ad agencies. And I worked around the clock to prove to myself and my dad I was not lazy!
It took me another two years to slay my first Dragon- write five songs, record them, and play them for a publisher. To my shock, the publisher loved my songs and wanted to hear more. With that victory came a glimmer of confidence, and I began to mow down Dragons with a vengeance! Five years later, at the young age of 25, I had my first of three #1 songs! I still find that, each step of the way on this journey, there are more dragons, but now I know they aren’t real. My creative Dragons are made up tales in my own mind. Today, I have cleared the path to create.